Well, like always, I hesitate to tell you of the "Yuck" times. Last night, Jameson cried ALL night and we thought that we would be back in the hospital today. In the past, he would cry all night and then start with a fever and back to the hospital we would go. He was soooo uncomfortable and we were unable to console him all night. A pain management Dr. told us that staff infections really itch and cause a great deal of discomfort. So we thought he might have another staff infection because he was so unbearable. As good as yesterday was, last night and today's bandage changes were just that bad. He had many more blisters today than yesterday. I hate seeing him with so many blisters, and I cannot tell you how much it hurts to see your baby in such a condition. I struggle with the ups and downs a lot. It seems like it would be easier if it were hard all of the time or either easy all of the time. The inconsistency of this disease is AWFUL!!!!!!!!!!! In my heart, I think everyday will get better but reality says it will be this hard for a while. I do know that the Lord will NEVER give me more than I can handle. But I told the Him just today that it is too much and He needs to make the blisters stop. I came to understand something very special about my Lord and Savior today. I learned that He listens and has amazing compassion towards me. He helped me to know that it is not my will but His that is being accomplished. I just have to do what He has called me to do and that is take care of my beautiful baby boy and stop trying to do this by myself. He wants to hear my frustrations and my desires, but He also wants me to glorify His through this valley.