I am learning to live out the verse "Do all things without grumbling or complaining". Do I grumble and complain... YES. But the Lord is teaching me why I should not complain. There are far worse things others are going through than us. Our lives are different but we have the hope of God healing Jameson completely. When I think of how much our lives have changed, I step back and remember what it was like just 9 weeks ago...WOW, God has brought us VERY far. I told the Lord ,just after we had Jameson, "There had better be an amazing purpose for all of this pain". He has since answered me. I am learning more about my Lord and Savior because of a 10 week old baby. I see what he goes through in a day and he still smiles. He is one amazing little boy!!!!! I have no reason whatsoever to complain about one thing. We have received an amazing blessing....Jameson.
I am seeing an improvement in Jameson's skin within the last 3 days. Today, I changed his bandages and there was NO infection. His little back and belly are still not good, but they are getting better. He has more pink baby skin now than he has ever had. I can only hope for the day, when I am doing bandage changes and Jesus says "today is the day that I will take the blisters away and heal Jameson completely". Todd and I eagerly wait for that day. This is our prayer.
I started thinking about the future yesterday and got a little nervous. How am I suppose to put a spoon in his mouth without making blisters? How is he going to learn to hold on to rattles and toys when he is always wrapped? How will I ever let him ride a bike or a rip stick like his brothers? I really worry about these things. I know that I should not worry but I DO. How do I ,as a mom, not think about all of those things? God will take care of all of my anxieties, I know...I just hope that Jameson will not be the adrenaline seeker like his Uncle Kent(who has been air lifted off a mountain because he wrecked riding his bike down a mountain in Colorado). We love you Kent! =) Maybe, Jameson will just play golf.